40 days to 40, day 29

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     There are times in my life when I've been spiritually asleep.  Those are the times when I don't even know it.  Then I look back and think, 'what was I thinking?' 'How could I have done such a thing or live a certain way?'   Its been 81 days since my last drink.  I really don't think about it much and I really don't like to count, but just thought I'd share.   I think by sharing is my way of staying awake. Today, I went to the dentist, not a pleasant thing I wanted to do, but had to be done.   I was living with a tooth that lost a filling, or so I thought for a few months now.   I remember I just noticed it was missing one day feeling my upper molar with my tongue.  When the dentist looked at it, he said it was actually a chipped tooth, but was chipped in such an unusual way, the filling just popped out.  I was thinking and trying to remember how the heck I could've chipped that tooth?  I don't eat hard candy. Then it suddenly occurred to me.   I remember some months ago, I was  having a hard time trying to open a mini bottle of vodka so I used my teeth.   A moment I was obviously asleep.   Funny, how a moment of drunken stupor can come back to bite you!  no pun intended.   Don't worry mom! The dentist said it can be easily fixed. Unfortunately,  not all consequences of alcohol are easily fixed.  But I'm blessed to say, my healing continues.   Sometimes the enemy can subtly lull us to sleep.  However, if we stay strong in the word, meditate on it, and act on it, then we can stay awake.  


I don't do alcohol anymore--I get the same effect just standing up fast.  --Author unknown. 

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