40 days to 40, day 3

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 It does get tempting to deviate from my commitment.  Nobody has to know and sometimes it gets lonely.  I  pray that God will give me the strength to stick it out.  Since I stopped drinking I feel more healthy.  I have more energy, and more clear minded. My husband and I are closer.  I can enjoy my kids more because seriously, it's no fun taking care of a four year old when you have a hangover. I do feel like the neurons in my brain that have been lying dormant are suddenly coming to life hence my recent infection with this writing bug. I suddenly have lots of ideas and my dreams are more vivid.  And spiritually? Well my faith is stretched and pulled everyday.  It doesn't FEEL right but it's really not supposed to FEEL right. It feels darn right awkward sometimes actually. Yet somehow, I  find comfort in that awkwardness. With the stretching and pulling I also find rest in knowing something bigger and greater than I am has got this.

 If I knew I was going to live this long, I'd taken better care of myself. - Eubie Blake

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