26 day writing challenge-Day 13 'Courage'

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 Write about a time you did something afraid. 


There is no turning back now.  My dearest loved ones were counting on me.   I've come so far, but I am not ready even though I've known this has been a long time coming.  It is now here-residency.  The time hardest stage in training to become a doctor.   The fear of not being enough heavy upon me driven by my struggles to pass the boards, rotations, not to mention leaving my young family behind.    I'm not good enough.  Do I really know what I'm doing? The fear of responsibility over these human souls is great and looming over me as I start my first day. Lord, just let me not kill anyone today

I handed my newborn second son over to my husband who has been my constant support and will continue to be in these hard upcoming years.  I completed my first day. As I get to hold my baby boy again, I try to calculate in my head- How many more days do  I have left? 

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